Saturday, November 12, 2022

"A Little Tug" 1996

 “OKAY, NOW YOU’RE GOING TO FEEL A LITTLE TUG.”

Moments after hearing those cruel words (delivered with such nonchalance they were!—downright cheerful-sounding he was!) I felt this physical sensation coming from my groin that really got my undivided attention. It triggered a full-body clammy sweat and I very nearly passed out. Well, if that was a little tug, I cringe at the thought of what a big tug might feel like. Good lord—how to describe it? Hmmm. That little ‘tug’ on the ol’ vas deferens felt more like someone hot-wired a taut cord strung between the deepest part of my physical being and some sort of electric Agony Machine. If that sadist had only been frank with me—if he’d spoken candidly, had said something like, “Okay, now you’re going to experience a sensation that…well, painful maybe isn’t the best way to describe it—more like, ‘excruciatingly unpleasant.’ Are we ready?” Had he said something along those lines, even in that saccharine, I’m-a-doctor tone of his, at least I could have braced myself. But there was no time.              Oh!   My!   GAWD!

Here’s the deal: It was a hot summer day and I was on my way to a scheduled outpatient surgery in Bishop. To be more specific, I was having (or is it ‘getting’?) a vasectomy, a so-called ‘minor procedure’ that I’d been putting off for some time now—a course of action that men of good intention tend to postpone in much the same way that people are always thinking about making their will but never quite get around to it. And why exactly was I having this minor procedure done on this hot summer day? Let’s put it this way: I can count on the fingers of one hand—one, two, three—the things that I can claim to know with complete certainty. Leading that short list is a fundamental cosmic-level precept: One can never be absolutely certain about anything whatsoever. Of this, I am entirely certain. Second in line is that old saw, still applicable, regarding death and taxes. Followed by being absolutely certain that I don’t want children. (Or, put another way, don’t want to help make any babies.) So, as regards item #3 on the list: I was taking care of some important business, at long last. Not just from a sense of duty, or a desire to insure that copies of my genes not be passed on, but from finding myself in a committed relationship with a woman of forty who already has two children and is ready to be done procreating. Why take chances?

 

BACK AT DORI AND MARTIN’S PLACE in Big Pine, after it was all overI’d stopped by earlier and told them where I was going and why and said I’d stop by on my way back home. When I returned, they were out front with our old friend from Rock Creek, Dave, who happened to be passing through town. (They’d told me he was going to be dropping by.) I parked in front of the gate and the three of them watched in silence as I gingerly eased myself out of the truck and slowly hobbled toward them, bowlegged as an old broke-down cowboy. Dori or Martin, clearly, had told Dave about my appointment with finality. I could tell by the way he was looking at me. Right when I got up to them, Dave couldn’t hold out any longer and said, “Well, how’d it go?” He’d been letting his imagination run wild, I could tell. This is a touchy subject for a lot of men and, when presented with a situation that forces them to confront the idea on a personal level, they can get squeamish. All eyes were on me now, waiting for my response. I’d not spoken yet and just stood there looking at them. Standing there looking at me. Something about the tone of impatient expectancy in Dave’s voice made me decide to play with this. Maybe farce it up instead of going with drama or the purely clinical take.

            Dave [looking grave]: “Well, what happened?! What did it feel like?”

            Okay, concentrate. You can do this. Just don’t crack yourself up. Straight face! 

Tim: “Well, of course I had to wait around forever. But they finally led me to a little room. A nurse took my blood pressure and all. Then she led me to another room. There was this big metal contraption up against one wall that I barely had time to check out before the doctor came in. A young guy. He and the nurse immediately started getting me attached to the thing. I didn’t have to put on a medical gown or even strip down to my underwear. The device was this, like, stainless steel cage. I had to stand inside it with my legs splayed out and they strapped them down at the ankles and above the knees with leather straps. My wrists, too, and a band around my chest. Then, this metal arm folded down and swung in from the side. It was this sorta spring-loaded rod with what looked like a boxing glove mounted on the end of it. I think it actually was a boxing glove at one time. Reddish leather…it looked old. Well, the doc pulled back on a lever mounted on the other side of the apparatus, whatever you’d call it, and the boxing glove thingey retracts about a foot and a half. Then he hit a little switch and…WHAM!” (This, accompanied by a violent slugging-someone-in-the-gut-with-fist gesture.) 

            Dave [horror and revulsion written on his face]: “Nooo!! That’s…that’s barbaric!”

            Martin and Dori, off to the side, at first just sniggering, now busting up. 

At this point, no longer able to keep my face straight. But I was done, anyway. “Son,” I said, “you’ve been had. Come on, Dave! I can’t believe you fell for that!”

            Dave [crestfallen and chagrined]: “Well, you’re always so serious about things. So I believed you! How was supposed to know?”

            I hobbled past the three of them, heading for the kitchen. I’d stashed a bag of frozen peas that I’d picked up in Lone Pine that morning in their freezer. A bag of frozen peas, with which to ice my throbbing nethers. Now, apropos of nothing whatsoever: Ever notice how it’s always peas? They always tell you, “Get a bag of frozen peas and…”—always peas. Why not corn? Or those tiny little geometrically perfect carrot cubes? Or ‘vegetable medley’? No: always peas. Never ice! Peas. (It makes you wonder if highly paid lobbyists for the National Pea Advisory Board or something like were dispatched to Washington, D.C. to work the politicians over before the other frozen vegetable magnates could get to them.)

            About that ‘little tug.’ What I actually felt was not the incision made in my scrotum—that was nothing. It was the feeling of having my vas deferens bodily dragged out of me, screaming, and a chunk of it excised. You see, back in the day they used to just sever the tube but men who’d had their vas-es ectomied were getting women pregnant; turns out that the two ends somehow were able to reunite and reattach themselves. How clever they are! So now, doctors remove a short section, which makes hooking back up no longer possible. 

And, Oh! I failed to mention that there were two ‘little tugs.’ Had to take a break after the first one—I really did almost black out and was drenched in sticky sweat. The doctor had to open a window for me so I could breathe and left me alone in the room for a few minutes. When he returned for round two, I’d had time to compose myself and mentally prepare. But when I heard him say, “Okay, now you’re going to feel that little tug again,” again….

 

 

               ©2022 Tim Forsell                                                            August 1996, 10 Nov 2022

Saturday, October 29, 2022

Case of the Missing Laundry Sack 2022

 COMPARED TO YOUR AVERAGE AMERICAN, I don’t own a lot of “stuff.” You know: things. No house, no major appliances. Not a whole lot of clothes; only one vehicle. No boat, no bike. In fact, nothing in the way of adult toys, seeing as how I no longer participate in sport. I do have lots of books and CDs, however, and a considerable assortment of nature-trinkets—rocks, crystals, feathers, bones, seed pods—organic tchotchkes that find their way onto almost every flat surface, both indoors and out. I take care of my possessions and appreciate quality, things built to last. I like my tools to be good tools and keep my knives razor-sharp. Practical, every-day-useful belongings like hand-slung pottery and superior cookware are held in high esteem and I honor them in a way that I imagine practitioners of Shinto esteem their own personal effects.  

             This may or may not be unusual, but certain possessions of mine have been part of my daily life for decades. A prime example being my wallet: a first-generation version of one of those Cordura nylon-jobbies with Velcro closure. I bought it at The Great Pacific Ironworks in Ventura when I worked there back in 1977. (Believe it or not, I’ve only owned one other wallet in my entire life.) The Velcro wore out years ago but the thing still works just fine. The little aluminum teapot that lives in my camper, a simple, sturdy, Swiss-made Trango teapot originally intended for backpacking, was a gift from my folks, Christmas 1975. I have various items of outdoor clothing that I’ve worn off and on since the mid ‘80s, most of them frayed and stained but fully serviceable. Also in my camper, in the space under the chair along with my sock & underwear bag, spare gas cartridges for the stove, and sundry items, is a largish-longish stuff sack that has served as my on-the-road dirty-clothes bag for the last forty years. I “found” it in 1984, my rookie season at Rock Creek Winter Lodge, while cleaning Cabin #9 (it was under one of the beds, its previous owner having just departed) and I immediately pressed it into service as my laundry sack. It was, and is, perfectly suited for that purpose. It has a pleasant, earthy, color I find appealing—call it “dark pumpkin-orange”—and is made of a stain-resistant, sturdy-but-supple woven nylon fabric. Built to last.  

 

The Case of the Missing Laundry Sack took place in, oh, 1991 or 92…back when I was living at the foot of the High Sierra a few miles west of Lone Pine. I was driving north on Highway 395 that morning, headed toward Bishop, and had just left the town part of town. Just past the Carl’s Junior, on the left, is a public park with lots of trees and shade. At its north end is a small parking lot flanked by tennis courts on one side and a swing-set on the other. A big green dumpster in the back corner in which I sometimes dump my week’s-worth of household garbage. Driving past the lot, I glanced over and saw someone, some young guy who was clearly of the homeless persuasion. And this, this person had my pumpkin-colored dirty clothes bag in his hand! The sheer incongruity caused my brain to screech to a halt in a cloud of dust. It took about a moment-and-a-half to put the pieces together: I’d done my wash at the Laundromat several blocks uptown a few days prior. Homeless-guy must have come in and snagged the bag while my stuff was tumbling in the drier, after I’d walked over to the P.O. to check for mail. I’d returned, folded my clean clothes, and left without noticing that my former sleeping-bag stuff sack had gone walkabout. 


I turned off the highway, pulled into the lot, parked, and went over to confront an unknown human quantity. No idea what I’d say; it would depend. Homeless people are as rare as Estonians in Lone Pine and I’d definitely never seen this fella before. 


He was engrossed in gathering up beer and soda cans, a dozen or so being scattered at his feet there in front of the dumpster. It was clear that this kid had just climbed out of the dumpster (its lid was propped open) after having rooted through the contents and hucking his finds out onto the pavement. The scene before me unearthed vivid memories from Yosemite Valley, way back in 1979: my own brush with self-induced, artificial poverty. But the real-life experience of being very close to broke…of retrieving aluminum cans from dumpsters for extra cash…getting busted by a ranger. The memory of it all perhaps softening my moral indignation a bit. 


As I approached, he was in the process of crushing the cans so that more would fit in the sack—my sack!—which he was holding in his left hand, partially filled, freshly stained. He was young—twenty-something, dark haired, dark complected. Cultural heritage not obvious. Generalized state of dishevelment: skin grimy, dirt-rimmed fingernails, a chronic case of the bed-head…jeans frayed, sneakers shot. Overall air of hardship and misfortune, of having taken a fall and maybe not so long ago. If he smelled I didn’t notice. He seemed alert, present, and fully functional—definitely not some burned-out druggie. But living a hard life.


            I strode right up to him and, in accordance with unwritten rules pertaining to personal space in situations like this, stopped just shy of six feet away. He had his back to me so I had a chance to look him over before he turned and saw me. Seeing me squared up didn’t seem to startle him or cause any distress. He met my eye with a completely neutral, unreadable expression. Perhaps just a hint of frown. But no defensiveness, no questioning glare, like, “What the fork do you want?” In that moment, I was pretty much a blank slate. But it was time to say something. Glancing down at the nylon stuff-sack in his hand, I tipped my chin in its direction and said, right to his face, “That’s my laundry bag.” No tone of accusation in my voice, just stating a fact. Can’t say that I was feeling much in the way of empathy just then—that came later. I wasn’t feeling much of anything except that I definitely wanted my laundry sack back.


            Homeless-fella looked me straight in the eye—assessing, processing, deciding. He was self-possessed. There was dignity in there. His look was an open-faced appraisal—unflustered, emotionless, without recrimination. I had no clue as to what he was thinking or seeing in my face. These moments felt longer than normal moments. 


Without a word, he half turned away from me, dumped the cans already in the sack onto the asphalt with a clatter, and held the now somewhat skanky thing out to me at arms length. There seemed to be no message in the manner in which he emptied the sack. (He could’ve put a lot of English into the act.) I took it and said “Thanks!” with barely perceptible hint of cheerfulness in my voice. Then turned on my heels and walked straight to my truck without looking back. He’d spoken nary a word. It was a completely civil exchange, in retrospect—all five words of it. To be fair, and to his credit, I should note that this fellow-sojourner was at the time engaged in trying to make an honest living. Like the rest of us who suffer life’s seemingly endless stockpile of travails, he was simply trying to get by. 


If someone had been standing there and witnessed our encounter, I wonder what they would have thought? 

 

 

                ©2022 Tim Forsell                                                                       15 Feb 2021, 29 Oct 22

Saturday, October 22, 2022

Piute Log...A Tangled Mess 2000

 Tree-removal was one of the most physically demanding but satisfying aspects of my job. I’d never cut a tree with an axe until starting to work for the Forest Service. In August, 1983, Jim Kohman and I walked into Piute that first time and two days later, Kelly, the ranger stationed at the cabin, led us two neophytes up the Kirkwood Pass trail to clear trees that came down during the previous winter. With double-bit axes (wicked-sharp, very “manly” lumberjack tools) we removed almost a dozen trees blocking the path. It was quite a thrill—feeling the heavy, steel blade sink into the wood…big chips flying…heaving the cut logs off the trail tread. Working as a team, in the mountains. It was very rewarding work, our blistered hands being a badge of honor. ◦◦◦◦◦ Not surprisingly, there’s a lot more than brute force involved. In certain regards, tree removal is an art form. There are many subtle techniques and tricks. Later, I learned to use a crosscut saw. People, seeing one, inevitably will make the “misery whip” crack but a well-sharpened crosscut wielded by two people who know what they’re doing can cut through a log faster than a dull chainsaw. Then there’s the “peavey” (also called a cant-hook), a five-foot-long wooden-handled tool with spike tip and hinged, curved steel “hook” used for levering. With it, you can move incredibly heavy logs. ◦◦◦◦◦ Half way through my career, we purchased a four-foot single-person crosscut—teeth like a crosscut but with a regular saw’s handle plus a second, round handle mounted on the spine of the saw. With this tool I was able to cut logs up to three feet thick. ◦◦◦◦◦ So here are a couple of entries about two particularly “interesting” jobs.

 

9 Jun (Fri)     ◦◦◦◦◦ Rode down to the roughs on the Eastside Trail to cut out that largish fallen tree. Packed the tools on Woody. For reasons unknown, Red was impossible today, flipping out at chipmunks, juncos, breeze-blown bushes, falling leaves, and combinations thereof. Really tedious. ◦◦◦◦◦ Fairly big job, that tree—about 22” [wide] but required just two cuts, not much limbing. Went on a quick exploration after finishing up, downriver a bit as far as that bedrock “island” in the gorge-y stretch. Climbed over to it on the now un-submerged log jam. Bouldered on fine granite over deep pools. Found a new plant, cute a little white-flowered Arabis (mustard family) growing in moss-filled cracks. ◦◦◦◦◦ Rode down to the crossing and headed up the Westside trail. Knocked out a fifty-foot reroute around the giant lodgepole that fell recently. No sense trying to cut it since the root-wad was right on the edge of the trail, impeding stock traffic. Removed two small trees and brushed out the new path. Done. ◦◦◦◦◦ Then, time for the big nasty. Namely, up on the hill, just past Fremont junction, a still-green lodgepole came down across a switchback. The trunk blocked the trail at chest height on the lower section then, above, the rest of the tree was more or less lying in the trail. Ick. ◦◦◦◦◦ Had to cut the blasted thing six times but will say this: the whole deal was a text-book ranger-style logging job. (Wish somebody had come along to witness the thrilling climax.) Six cuts with my 4-foot saw—all of them before limbing, for a change. First, cut the butt-end somewhat above the root-wad. This resulted in the rest of the tree lifting up and away from the trail, as intended. (Being off the ground made limbing much easier, which is why I left it.) Then the six-foot cut-out, which I wrestled off to the side, clearing this lower section. Midway along the trunk was this bulky “witch’s broom.” You see these things up in lodgepoles—localized cancer-like growths induced by a type of fungus, forming a single massive ball of densely packed needles. (Runaway growth, cancer-style.) This was a big one, several feet in diameter. Began by sawing off the 6”-wide limb it had taken over but the blade started to bind so left it for the time being. Two straightforward cuts, then limbed and rolled the heavy, wet rounds off the trail. The main trunk now lay across another fallen tree and it had rotated slightly when I made those two cuts, causing the bound kerf on that 6” limb to open a bit. So I finished cutting off the witch’s broom. And—Voilá! Hey presto!—the middle section of the trunk, twenty feet long and now limbless, rose gently up in the air. It was balanced—perfectly balanced—on an old limbless horizontal log this tree had fallen across and way laying on. I could now pivot it easily, literally with one finger. I’d sized the situation up at the start and specifically located my third cut at what looked like the balance point. And hit it dead…on…the money. Yes! So when I finished cutting off that witch’s broom limb the rest of the tree  slowly swayed up to level and I was able to roll this maybe 900–1000 pound log across the firm ramp it’d fallen across. (!!!) This was a thing of great beauty, in its way. The physical feeling of moving—of rolling—this giant heavy object with my two gloved hands was…mostgratifying. ◦◦◦◦◦ Packed up tools and headed barnward. Woody, on his own, running to keep up. Red was now fine (as per usual once he’s homeward bound). Took my bath on the slabs below the cabin, frigid in the cold breeze with sizable snowbank just feet away. Enjoyed making acquaintance with this year’s crop of yearling deerlings loitering in the yard. So fine not to have bugs! They’ll be here soon enough! Like my ol’ gran’pappy used to say, “Nothing’s certain but death, taxes, and mosquitoes in July.” (Just made this up, haha.)

 

A month and a half later:

 

27 Jul (Thu)     ◦◦◦◦◦ Rode up the Long Lakes trail and took out that horrible tangle of trees—a “domino effect” sichyashun. Big lodgepole snag toppled taking several young trees with it. Fell right smack down the trail, dang it. Why couldn’t you have just fallen into the lake? ◦◦◦◦◦ Worked diligent-hard for several hours in the hot sun and bugswarms. Got my daily exercise and more, that’s fer shur. Dozens of limbs cut and dragged off or heaved. Many cuts, from eight to twenty inches. Had to move bigger cut-outs using Blue Max. [My trusty peavey—christened by former supervisor Lorenzo, who always named things, for its blue-painted steel head.] Also, axed out many lodgepole saplings so’s I could roll logs far enough off the tread. More limbing. Stiff breeze blowing sawdust right into my face as I sawed. A hazardous job, this one, with much crawling under logs—logs bearing jagged pointy broken-limb staubs. And of course, as usual, nary a soul passed by while I slaved away. It’s uncanny how seldom people catch me when I’m working hard—almost never. Lost blood from five holes/gouges/slices in my tender flesh despite paying careful attention all the while. (Trees being whacked into pieces always find ways to get even—it’s The Law. No way to avoid it.) Gotta say, this was one of the nastiest dendro-tangles I’ve ever had to deal with all on my own. A real abortion. Did it all in one day using every trick and technique and tool to pull it off. ◦◦◦◦◦ Pretty spent after finishing up but took mandatory exploratory jaunt: first-ever visit to a nearby granite highpoint. Lots of bear sign thereabouts. Met with three fine trees arranged in a triangle, all three roughly 6’ DBH [Diameter-at-Breast-Height]. One, a stunning, barkless white pine snag (visible from the trail it turns out). Right next to it a stately, straight-trunked Sierra juniper. Just down-slope, another grand old white pine. ◦◦◦◦◦ Home, unloaded, and unsaddled by 7:00. Had picked up a load of seasoned limb-wood at the job—free firewood! A long, hard day of honest labor on the mountain. Took my bath with the sun full on me, right before it set, and at this moment I’m up in the hammock relaxing with last orange light just fading from the tip of Hawksbeak, horses and deerses grazing below. Amen.   

 

     → no visitors       → 6 trees (9 cuts total)       → 2 w-bars cleaned      → 7½ miles

 

Copied on page one of this volume of Piute Log:

Like a farmer or rancher, like anyone who works with plants or flesh, I invested more than time and sweat in the territory that was mine to oversee. In the days ahead, I staked my claim in my own blood and in my love for the earth it watered…. Motivation, responsibility, enthusiasm, dedication—were instilled in me by one Chief Warden with a few simple words: “Well, this is your district, and here’s your outfit. As long as you look after it, it’s yours to run.

                                                                        Sid Marty, Men for the Mountains

 

            ©2022 Tim Forsell             21 Oct 2022                    

Monday, May 30, 2022

She Saw a Mountain Lion! 2022

 THE DORIS DUKE CONSERVATION SCHOLARS, a select group of undergrads from U.C. Santa Cruz, showed up at Crooked Creek in August—the White Mountains being one of half a dozen destinations during their eight-week field-based ecology and conservation course. These were garden-fresh college kids from the coast, not quite children but most definitely not adults in any practical sense of the word. In the thick of laying out a seven a.m. breakfast for twenty undergrads and their four adult advisors, just minutes from ringing the bell, I glanced up and noticed several scholars in the dining room in a tense huddle. What caught my eye in particular was one post-pubescent female of eighteen or (maybe) nineteen summers. She was visibly distraught—wild-eyed and gesticulating. I toweled off my hands and walked over. “Hey, what’s up?” 

Wild-eyes swiveled towards me. “I…just saw, like…a mountain lion—I think!!” The girl was flushed, breathing hard, animated—full-on lit-up. I gathered from her rapid breathing that she’d come through the door just moments before. The others were staring at her. Agog, as it were. “A lion!” one of them said. “She saw a mountain lion!”

            “Really?! You saw a lion? Where?”

            Still out of breath: “ I went out…for a run…”

            “Where exactly was this?” She pointed southwards. “I went up that hill over there…on the old road…up to that, like, big open area with all the rock outcrops.”

            “Yeah, Sagehen Flat. Where were you when you saw the thing?”

            Her breathing had slowed somewhat and she seemed to be calming down as the adrenaline dissipated. “I was actually off the road when I saw it. On this, like, sort of a ridge. I wanted to watch the sun rise so I went up there. It was with a little one. I think it was a mother with its baby following right behind her. I was super scared! I know that mothers with their babies can be, like, extra dangerous.”

            “How close were you?”

            “Well, they were actually pretty far away. I don’t think she saw me but I was   really afraid. I ran all the way back without stopping. I couldn’t tell if she saw me or not but I was really afraid that if she did see me, she’d, like, attack.”

            “How’d you know it was a lion? How big was it? Did it have a tail?” (I’m thinking, Maybe it was a bobcat.)

            “It was really big! I don’t know, like, maybe seven or eight feet long. Yeah, it had a tail…I think. No, it did have a tail. They both did. I’m pretty certain.”

            “Hmmm. That’s…that’s big. Are you sure? They were pretty far away, after all. Sometimes it’s hard to tell how big something is when it’s off in the distance.”

             Eyes go from wide to wider: “No! It was, like, huge!”

            “What color was it?” Thinking: Wow…this girl is reallly pumped-up.

            “They were kinda, like, brown, I think.”

            “’Kinda brown,’ hmmm. Was the tail long and fat? Could you tell?”

            “Yes! I took a picture! With my phone. But they were pretty far off.” She whipped out her phone.

            “Well, I very much want to see the picture but, hey, right now I’ve gotta get your breakfast out. Come back and show me when everybody’s done eating.” As I turned to go a new gaggle of concerned scholars closed in and she started retelling her story. This was clearly a very big deal. For her…for all of them. Perhaps one of if not the most thrilling experience to befall this young urbanite—in her entire life thus far. From Lion-girl’s perspective, she had stood at or near death’s door. (Never did catch the young woman’s name; with these big student groups I generally don’t even make an effort.) Her excitement, agitation, exaltation, and primal fear were rubbing off on the whole group. 

            I fell back into my all-business mode and focused on the job at hand but glanced out at the shifting huddle a couple more times mid-hustle and saw her re-recounting her big adventure. Finally, things were winding down and the cleanup crew started clearing tables and putting away leftovers. I was still racing around when she showed up with her phone, trailed by several classmates—a veritable entourage. Having cheated death before breakfast, Lion-girl had achieved new respect among her peers and was now a sort of star. “Oh, hey, gimme a second.” I  was in the middle of directing the post-breakfast show: “No, just throw out those bread heels; no one ever eats them. Condiments go in the kitchen fridge, third shelf, right side. That goes back in the walk-in….” I toweled off my hands again and followed them out into the dining room. She handed me her phone with a triumphant look. I could barely make out two tiny dots in a sea of sagebrush.

            “Sorry, I was pretty far away when I took it. I can zoom in….” I handed the phone back and she tweezed the screen before holding it up for me to see. Everybody’s eyes were now on me.

            The two dots were now much larger but very granular. I stared at the image for several seconds, giving it my best furrowed-brow squint. “Oh. Wow.” This wasn’t what I’d expected—at all. Mountain lions just don’t walk around in the open during daylight hours so I’d been skeptical at the outset, figuring it was a coyote or maybe a bobcat, even though she thought she’d seen a tail.

            “So, it is a lion, and her cub, isn’t it? Or is it ‘kitten’?”

            “Ummm…y’know, it’s awful grainy. I can’t tell for sure but from what you described…. I trailed off. “Well, that’s pretty…amazing. Never seen a lion up here, myself, but they’re around for sure. Hey, gotta get back to work. Thanks for showing me that.”

            They wandered off and I jumped back into the fray. “Hey, dishwashers, a reminder: plates have two sides. Oh, don’t bother saving those last two bites—eat ‘em or toss ‘em.” A couple of minutes later, I spotted Justin—the group leader—out in the dining room talking with a few scholars. I walked over and when he looked up and met my eye I did the little head toss thing (comes with eye-roll), signaling that we needed to have a private meeting. Nobody was in the kitchen at the moment and Justin followed me into the little nook where the fridge is, the one spot in the kitchen not visible from the dining room. “Hey, Tim, what’s up?”

            “Justin, hi, good morning. Uh, the young woman who saw the mountain lion when she went for a run this morning? You’ve heard about this, right?”

“Ohhhh, yeah.” He grinned. “They’re all talking about it.”

“Well, she just showed me the picture on her phone. Justin: it was a cow. She saw a cow and its calf. Maybe you’re aware that Deep Springs College out in Fish Lake Valley runs cattle up here in the summer. They have since the start—part of their program, y’know, the self-reliance thing: growing their own vegetables, running cattle. Apparently they just moved the herd up here in the last few days. I hadn’t spotted any myself so it didn’t even occur to me that that’s what she might’ve actually seen. Hey, I ‘get’ that people who don’t know much about nature don’t know how to judge size—especially at a distance—or have a clue what to look for. And I imagine she wasn’t expecting that cattle might be way up here. But a Hereford cow? The girl said it was ‘brown, I think.’ Herefords are cinnamon-red with big white patches! Not so brown! Kinda caught me off guard and I didn’t know what to say. This is obviously a big deal—probably one of the most thrilling things that’s ever happened to her. Hey, nothing like a little mortal fear to add some sparkle to your day! The poor little thing really did think this giant slathering beast-with-fangs might run her down and rip out her liver. A narrow escape! Her friends got all worked-up, too. What do you think? Should I tell her she ran away from a cow or just let her bask in all the glory?”

            Justin burst out laughing at the word “cow” and had been grinning ever since. It was pretty funny, after all. (From this grizzled mountaineer’s perspective, it was a real hoot.) But then, pondering my final words, Justin’s face took on a more serious expression—a half-frown-with-lips-pursed, serious look. Long pause. And he said, slowly, “No…no, don’t say anything. I’ll tell her myself. Later. When the time’s right.”

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

            ©2022 Tim Forsell                                                                                      30 May 2022      

Sunday, May 22, 2022

Piute Log...Slow In the Morning 1994

 31 Jul (Sun)     Up at 5:30, earliest in a while (I’d set the alarm). Off by 9:00. ◦◦◦◦◦ An aside…. Some people might wonder why it would take three and a half hours for me to get underway. Three and a half hours? Really? Anyone interested in why? Probably not, but I’ll explain/justify anyway. ◦◦◦◦◦ Well, first off, I tend to be slow in the morning. It’s not that I’m not a “morning person.” I just don’t like being rushed in the morning hours. I have no problem getting underway as early as needed when there’s any kind of plan. But I’ll happily get up much sooner than necessary just to have plenty of time to futz around. Like today, typical morning routine: Maybe ten minutes after the alarm went off I was still in my sleeping bag, petting the purring cat on my chest, coming up with a plan. Dawn in progress. Got up and got a fire going in the stove. Went out to pee and used that time to scan my beloved meadow and admire a last-quarter moon just coming up over the ridge. Horses, right over there by the river—close by for a change. So I went back to the porch and got an empty nosebag, shook it so they’d see. Went back in the cabin, boiled water on the Coleman and made cocoa. Sat at the table with steaming mug and read a bit of Muir—My First Summer in the Sierra (amazingly, for the first time). Horses wandered over so I went out, grabbed that nosebag, scooped some grain in, and took it to the corral. Horses followed me right in and I locked ‘em up. Made tea. Wrote a quick letter to a friend. Then breakfast: fried a couple of eggs and ate standing up while keeping an eye on the bagels toasting directly on the stove top. Then did dishes, tossed the wash and rinse water over the little rock bluff outside. Rustled up a lunch, wiped all surfaces down. Hauled in a few arm-loads of the firewood I’d split yesterday, piled up around the chopping round. Finished tidying cabin. Went out and fetched Red to the hitchrail. Brushed, saddled, and sprayed him down with bug juice. Got suited up in my ranger costume. And all of a sudden, poof!, it’s nine o’clock! Actually, I was pretty happy to be off so, ahem, “early.” (If the horses had been way in the back as per usual it’d be after ten.) Things just seem to take longer in the backcountry. ◦◦◦◦◦ Rode up to Black’s camp [old established camp at the meadow’s far end] to visit the Armstrongs. We’d chatted briefly on the trail yesterday as they were on their way in. Gene asked about a good dayride they could take. I suggested going over Kirkwood Pass, up the north fork of Buckeye Creek, and down Long Canyon. Wanted to show them on the map ‘cause the old trail turnoff to Beartrap Lake is not obvious. Gene had all sorts of queries so the “quick visit” ended up eating up forty-five minutes. Finally headed downcanyon and barely made it through the front gate before running into the “Second Winders,” a church group I’ve met several times before. Gave ‘em the full ranger treatment. Then a couple of smaller parties. Within an hour I’d gotten three separate praises for my “ranger note.” ◦◦◦◦◦  Up to Fremont Lake where I found the trailcrew on their lunch break. No backpackers around, nary a one. Amazing! July—peak tourist season! Backtracked over to the job site; lots of wall built already, soon to be rip-rapped, Yosemite-style. But it’s a shame—they’ll only finish one bad section this year and if Mark, God forbid, actually leaves Bridgeport (like he’s been threatening to do for the last five years) this bit of trail may never really be safe for stock travel. In fact, no more than a hundred yards from the job site, Red was tip-toeing up one of those angled, slabby bits. Suddenly, both front shoes skidded off. Red fell to his knees and I got spilled off. Fortunately, uphill. And fortunately, I was ready (had my toes right at the edge of the stirrups so my feet wouldn’t get hung up just in case he were to fall down) and didn’t break anything or even lose blood. Lucked out—again! ◦◦◦◦◦ On to Cinko Lake via the West Fork trail. No one there, either. One of the main camps by the trail: some failed-human loser had taken a dump right in the camp (undoubtedly, just before leaving) and there was his poop-shmeered t.p. “hidden” behind a log. Of course, I cleaned up the mess—scraped up the pile with two flat rocks, burned the t.p. ◦◦◦◦◦ Down the big long hill and home. The Armstrong party passed by shortly after I arrived,  heading back to camp. Along for the ride was Gene’s eighty-two year old mother. They all waved and Gene yelled, “Thanks for the hot tip!” Yer welcome! ◦◦◦◦◦ Took a walk with Fenix and when we got back, went for my bath. Both cats followed me over. But first I sat on a grassy bank near the swimmin’ hole and watched a spectacular sunset—clouds turned all pink before my very eyes. Just beneath my perch were several big hunks of turf that have peeled off the bank in the spring flood. Now, they’re little temporary grass-covered islands. Fenix leapt onto one. He was already pumped up but then spotted a few little troutlets. His tail began to wag furiously. Something about it reminded me of the scene in Wizard of Oz when the Cowardly Lion, Scarecrow and Tin Man were marching into the Witch’s castle, the Cowardly Lion’s tail was wagging wildly from under his “borrowed” guard’s uniform. Fenix inched down to the edge and was poised to leap right in. I really thought he might do it. Then Velcro sproinged himself onto the island, too, and started attacking that impossible-to-resist tail, crawling all over Fenix who ignored the kitten, intent on stalking baby trout. Finally Fenix stabbed a paw deep into the water but it came up empty and he shook it off with the most surprised look. I laughed and laughed. It was too funny! Youda hadda been there….

                →  39 visitors          →  2 firepits         →  2 lbs trash          →  18 miles

 

          ©2022 Tim Forsell                                                                                            19 May 2022

Friday, March 25, 2022

Piute Log...Sandy Was Here! Oct 2000

 In the mid-70s, there was this wife/husband act called The Captain and Tennille, known for a few big hits  that were all over AM radio. (Anyone recall the cringe-inducing “Muskrat Love”?) I’m not sure how the original connection was made but for many years Bart Cranney packed Toni Tennille into the backcrountry, along with a rotating cast of female friends that included several, need I say, very attractive wives of L.A. Dodgers. Toni was a real outdoorswoman (not so, her keyboard-playing husband) and, from the looks of it, so were the Dodgers-wives. They called these outings “W.I.T.S. trips,” for “Women In The Sierra.” Bart would put them up in one of his big-tent basecamps, feed them great meals, and the ladies would go off together on long dayhikes in full make-up. ◦◦◦◦◦ My first few seasons at Piute I’d get invited down for supper when Toni was in town. At that time, Bart’s camp was located just a half mile down the trail from Upper Piute. There was always music—live, mountain music—great food, libations, and laughter. Toni and her friends sang; wonderful three and four part harmony vocals they’d obviously practiced; pure magic around a cracklin’ campfire. Sadly, by 1988 or 89 the West Walker W.I.T.S. trips were over. Toni and friends had visited all the lakes and climbed all the peaks and decided it was time to move on to greener meadows. I ran into her again several years later (I forget where) backpacking with a different set of friends—all of them fully made up, everyone stoked to be in the mountains. By this time, I believe the Captain and Tennille were more or less relegated to the Nevada casino circuit. But T.T. was a class act—completely down to earth. Fun. BIG. And she filled a room—even outdoors.  

4 Oct    Leafing through Jim Kohman’s log from 1987, yesterday, I read that he “Had dinner in Bart’s camp with Sandy and Ann Koufax.” I knew Bart packed Toni Tennille and her Dodgers-wives friends up here (I had dinner with them several times, starting in ‘83) but didn’t know he packed actual Dodgers! I’ve read each of Jim’s logs a couple times now but somehow missed this nugget, or plum forgot. Sandy Koufax was one of the sports legends of my youth, back when the Los Angeles Dodgers were at the top of the heap and, to this day, Koufax is considered one of baseball’s all-time great pitchers. Got a real kick outa knowing that Sandy! friggin'! Koufax! hung out in Bart’s basecamp only a half mile from here. I’d imagine he strolled up to see the meadow at least once but Jim makes no mention of any visit to the cabin in his log. (He’s a big Giants fan so maybe wasn’t quite as thrilled as I would’ve been.) ◦◦◦◦◦ Packing out the trailcrew today. My clock’s alarm isn’t working so I woke up about once an hour all through the night to make sure I didn’t oversleep. Each time I’d roll over to press the button that lights up the clock face, Shitbird would rouse, jump off the bed, and go eat a few crunchies or have a drink. But every time I woke to check the clock there was this firm, warm, alive-but-dormant catball curled up right next to my head. ◦◦◦◦◦ Then it was 4:30 which was close enough for government work. Lit lanterns and my already-laid fire with the same match, got the teapot on, and started another big day in the dark. Fed the horses and mule, flashlight beam glinting off four or five pairs of eyes. A frightened snort from one so I shone the light up on my face, “Hey! It’s only me!” Started to pour some pellets into one of the feeders but found that it already contained a load…in recycled form. One of the ne’er do wells, probably Nickel, had done the equivalent of crapping on your own dinner plate. I turned the heavy feeder on its side and dumped out most of the leavings but didn’t get them all. When I righted the thing and tipped some pellets in, by golly, they went after ‘em. With gusto. Musta been pretty hungry to eat breakfast mixed with fresh horse doo-doo. ◦◦◦◦◦ 28°F on the porch. Heard the pygmy owl, first time this season. (Seems to show up every fall around this time, prob’ly the same lonely individual.) Started saddling at oh-seven-hundred. I’d prepped this day pretty heavily—guaranteed to be a long one. Manda’s whole crew was depending on me and the sooner they get to town the happier they’ll be. So I was out brushing and saddling eight head in the frosty dawn, leather straps all stiff, still-wet pads half frozen. Wolfed down the last of, what?, four-day-old chili while suiting up and called it breakfast. Got underway before sun hit the cabin but it rose on Piute Meadows just as we were crossing the river. Nice touch. ◦◦◦◦◦ Faithful readers of this log (all two of them…you know who you are) will recall the debacle back in June when Nickel wankered my arm for the season. “He wasn’t broke to lead,” sez our horseshoer, “He was broke to tow.” Well, fortunately I haven’t had to use Nickel much since then but my right arm is still numb so today I “loose herded” him—Western-ese for “turned him loose to follow on his own.” ◦◦◦◦◦ Equines are so herdbound, I knew he’d stick with his compatriots. And so he did; fell in right behind the string. We got through the gate and started up the first hill. Looked back: no Nickel. Waited. Waited some more, starting to get angry. The blankety-blank so-and-so finally ambled through the gate all la-la-la and that was the story all the way to Harriet Lake. (That is, stop’n’go’n’stop’go….) Had to halt numerous times, string of six bunching up behind me, and the gentle morning up-slope breeze would bathe us all in a slow moving cloud of pulverized trail while we waited and waited for Nickel. He’d finally amble up all casual-like, stopping aways back to nibble a bit of trailside grass. Coulda killed him, figuratively speaking. Definitely some violent thoughts. Mind you, I’m trying to be professional; to show up not just on time but unfashionably early. And this horse, who I already have this vendetta with, sabotaged my plans yet again. ◦◦◦◦◦ Turned out we got to the crew camp just three minutes behind schedule. (When we rolled in, Michelle paid me a high compliment: “We were getting pretty worried, mister! You’re three minutes late!” ◦◦◦◦◦ Good to see the bunch. That trail crew vitality. Of course, they were all rarin’ to hit the trail. Yesterday, Michelle and Jordan and Jessica climbed Tower Peak—nice going, team!!—and they told me I was being slandered in the summit register. Someone wrote next to my name (from last season) “the ranger is a dweeb.” Another, something about me being a “pork chop.” I know who it was. My friend Deb, who works as a guide for Sierra Treks. (Joked with her once about how when we first met—years back, in Ventura—she was kinda plump. I referred to her as a “little pork chop.” She hasn’t let me forget.) ◦◦◦◦◦ Got out with few problems, slow and steady. Had one of those weird, synchronistic reality-glitches, the kind where trouble comes in clumps (or bundles, or baskets…whatever trouble is served up in). First: right after crossing the river when we left the cabin, found that I’d nicked one of my right hand fingers while necking the string. (I lose blood every time I have to deal with livestock, almost without fail.) It was just a tiny nick but it struck a large enough vessel that the bloody thing bled for over half an hour. And I mean, bled—stained the lead rope and got my fingers all sticky. For a while there, I continuously sucked the blood off and spat red. It was really annoying—damn thing just wouldn’t quit leaking oil. But eventually it did. ◦◦◦◦◦ So: hours later, a mile from Lane Lake, I turned in the saddle to check on my string. Right then Woody, lead packhorse, set back for no apparent reason. Maybe I startled him when I turned. But his head whipped up and the lead rope zinged across the back of my right hand, which at that moment just happened to be resting on my thigh. The rope was dallied around the saddlehorn (not supposed to do that, Tim…) and slipped under significant tension. Hence the “zing.” Aye!! Looked down to see an actual furrow cut into the back of my hand: an almost three-inch shallow groove—pale, glistening, not-bleeding-yet, raw manflesh. No…wait…yep, oh yeah here it comes. Welling up out of the tiniest pores, then a nice, steady flow. Bleeding! Again! Oh, well. ◦◦◦◦◦ 

 

 

          ©2022 Tim Forsell                                                                                      25 Mar 2022   

Sunday, January 30, 2022

Small Hawk Encounters 1994


 

OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS I’ve been piecing together a sort of backroads route through Owens Valley—a means of getting from here to there by taking the path of some resistance. So far as I know, driving from Lone Pine to Bishop isn’t feasible without four wheel drive and a purloined LADWP gate key to make it around the back side of Tinnemaha Reservoir. The most “practical” option I’ve found thus far keeps me on the straight path of State Route 395 for about ten of those sixty miles. Steering clear of tarmac, I turn onto sandy, brush-lined two-tracks at places marked not with signs but landmarks: just past a ditch lined by willows…first left after the haystacks. My favorite bit is an eight mile stretch of pre-395 “highway”—two lanes of crumbling antique asphalt lined with encroaching vegetation, in places buried under drifts of wind-blown sand. (Old roads in this tumbleweedy, plants-sprouting-from-all-the-cracks condition have a post-apocalyptic quality I find strangely appealing.) Parts of my preferred route are east of the river, shadowing either the historic railroad bed of the Carson & Colorado line or what’s left of a long-abandoned canal system hugging the base of the Inyos. You’d never know, from the looks of things now, that most of the action in the valley after whitey first showed up in the 1860s was over there in that dry and desolate zone—fields, railroad stops, bustling villages. And now, barely a trace left behind.

Thanks in part to being gainfully unemployed half of each year, with time to spare, I’ve acquired a taste for taking the slow way instead of the highway. For those days of no-hurry, puttering along on the back back roads at ten or fifteen miles an hour feels just right; it makes for risk-free gaping and eliminates altogether the prospect of drifting into a tragic high speed head-on while doing so. In second gear you can admire dramatic vistas out the side windows…gaze wistfully at summits…keep an eye out for snakes. There’s time and mental space to recall bygone adventures, to dredge up details like how the air and light felt on some special day years in the past while still making forward progress in the present. Sandy stretches along the river allow you to drive by feel while side-gawking: correct course without a glance when rabbitbrush grazes fender or front wheels start to climb out of their ruts. Of course, I have standard stops along the way for all-purpose viewing. Soaring eagles and migratory flights of white pelicans have me out of the truck, binoculars in hand. Owens Valley is my home in the broader sense of the word “home” and I derive a great deal of pleasure simply looking at it. 

Several days ago, heading north, I took that stretch of old highway past Aberdeen and Taboose Creek Campground. But, rather than continue straight on the formerly paved section that traverses the west side of Poverty Hills (seldom graded, terrible washboard) I turned right on the Goodale Creek Road cutoff and got back on 395. Quicker this way. The plan, such as it was, entailed a stop in Big Pine to visit my friends Martin and Dori before pressing onwards. But first, a short but not-so-brief detour.

Some backstory. Recently, heading home from Bishop, I discovered a roundabout way to sidestep another half-mile of pavement; probably not worth the trouble but it provided an opportunity to explore. Just south of Big Pine, an inconspicuous PG&E service road angles westward toward the powerline. I veered off there and followed it aways before turning onto a narrow track that wound around without rhyme or reason, then crossed a little creek-like water diversion and eventually ran into the old pioneer cemetery road. There, I bore left and passed by the dump, taking me back to 395. 

So, on this north-bound trip, I decided to try out my new bypass from the opposite direction—cement it in my mind in case I ever feel the urge to go that way again. To that end, I turned left at Cemetery Road, passed the dump and…et cetera. This was a blustery December day at autumn’s bitter end. Finding the aforementioned creeklet now rimmed with ice came as a shock, reminding me that winter was nigh. The watercourse was bordered by head-high willows, some still bearing a few withered leaves. Nearing the shallow ford, movement caught my eye: the willows were chock full of “white-crowns”—that is to say, white-crowned sparrows—a common and widespread species of little-brown-bird, very handsome. Like other highcountry songbirds, white-crowns leave their breeding grounds come fall to congregate in the lowlands where they weather their winters, snagging enough stray insects and leftover seeds to get by. 

Coasting toward the little rivulet, I was surprised when they all didn’t take wing but quickly realized that the whole flock was just then coming in to drink—the group-mind pulling them down, noisy intruder be damned. One-ounce sparrows rained down like confetti. And kept on coming. Already, some dozens lined the shallow water flowing across the road. They seemed to materialize from the aether, alighting in vegetation bordering the brook or straight onto muddy ice slicks beneath the willows. Dozens of sparrows were jammed shoulder to shoulder, muscling in for a drink in the fashion of thirsty cattle. My truck’s metallic bulk and droning engine didn’t alarm them in the least. By then I’d eased to a stop ten feet from water’s edge and still they kept showing up. And showed up some more. Striped crowns were bobbing up and down continually, each bird frequently lifting its head to let water trickle down a beakful at a time. I couldn’t hear what they were saying amongst themselves. Bird gossip, I suppose.

Up on the Sierra crest it was snowing. The highest summits were hidden under snow-cloud as were the upper parts of neighboring canyons. I knew exactly what it was like to be up there in those clouds…knew just how it would feel in such weather. This made me glad to be in my truck with the heater on all nice and warm, watching a nature-movie through the wide screen windshield. In fact, it felt as if I were in a theater (minus the popcorn) and I was delighted in some primal fashion by mere proximity to a flock of little birds who were going about their business, unmindful of my presence. 

I was leaning on my steering wheel, taking in the show with a big grin when my “inner scientist” turned up. This was perhaps the biggest mob of white-crowns I’d ever seen in one place and I felt this sudden impulse to estimate the number of birds in the flock. After decades of birding you develop a knack for ballpark-figuring flock size. Here’s how it’s done: depending on the crowd’s size and amount of movement and mingling, you swiftly count ten birds, say, or twenty if they’re holding still. (Hint: crossing the eyes a bit helps in visually isolating this random grouping within a larger field.) Then you can double its size, maybe double that, and finally estimate what fraction of the whole group this bunch represents. For some reason, I enjoy the process.

Stripey-head sparrows were still turning up but others were beginning to leave. I started my first count and reached eighteen when, suddenly, the whole lot disappeared.  Vanished. They were just GONE in a meteoric whoosh!And in the same instant some foreign object—something bigger, a blur—streaked across my windshield/movie screen and dove into the willows. Whatever it was slammed into the thicket at speed. What was that!?! What just happened?!Had there been other spectators sharing my private theater experience, the entire audience would have erupted in one big, room-filling “Oooohh!!” I was clutching the steering wheel, at the edge of my seat. Some halfhearted thrashing-about in the bushes…an indistinct shape. Then, a kestrel—the little falcon—lifted into the air and soared out of view. It was a “he” (inner-scientist’s wordless snap ID: dark spots on belly, not brown streaks; tail black-tipped, not barred; blue grey wings = ♂) and he came up empty. I found myself exultant, cheering inside—a tacit salute to both winners and losers in lieu of clapping and shouting, Bravo!! Encore, encore!! But all the players had left the stage and were not coming back for a bow. Show over. Graced again.

 

Maybe a week before this minor drama unfolded (in fact, it was the day I first tried out that new cutoff via Cemetery Road) I was headed south and stopped in Big Pine to see Dori and Martin. It’d been awhile. During our catch-up, Martin mentioned a recent trip to Independence; something about the courthouse…taking care of some legal paperwork. Out of the blue: “Have you ever seen those big trees in the back?” I shook my head no and Martin just grinned. ”There’s some cool old trees back there…you should go check ‘em out.” We both have a thing for trees so that was all the hint I needed. 

            Never in all my years living on the Eastside, even after driving past it hundreds of times, had I taken time to visit the historic Inyo County Courthouse. Not once, even though the tan-colored three story office building, right by the highway, is—hands down—Owens Valley’s most distinguished edifice. But just an hour after leaving Big Pine (twenty minutes had I not taken the slow way) I pulled up behind it, finding myself on a residential street in a time-worn neighborhood made up of modest wooden houses, many of them built, I’d have to guess, in the 1930s and 40s. I parked by a tall hedge behind which was some sort of open space hemmed in by the hedge along with half a dozen tightly spaced conifers. It was hushed and peaceful in there, I could tell, thanks in part to the lofty shade trees but also because the courthouse did a fine job of muffling the incessant din of traffic, traffic streaming past a scant hundred yards away. The courthouse complex’s rear was accessed from the street by a cement walk leading through a wide break in the hedge. As it happened, this was a Saturday; the place was deserted. I peeked in and saw what looked to be a pint-sized urban park—a common area for the use and enjoyment of both employees and waiting visitors. The grounds consisted of a somewhat scruffy midwinter lawn sporting several wooden benches and a pair of picnic tables. The mere presence of the commanding, multistory government building lent the whole scene an air of solemn decorum. I had absolutely no idea this was here! I was completely taken aback by all the beauty, charmed by the atmosphere. 

Passing through the leafy threshold, I was at once enveloped by a warm, fuzzy  feeling—a feeling of welcome. Of refuge. The quarter-acre park was populated by well-groomed exotic trees forming a protective wall on the north and east sides. (It would be deliciously inviting here in the summer months.) But on this particular day, with no one around, the place had a sanctified, cathedral-like ambiance. I slowly took all this in, first craning my eyes up an almost perfectly conical redwood sequoia—the Big Tree—whose native brethren reside thirty miles due west of where we stood, at a similar elevation but in a whole ‘nother world. The sequoia was flanked by stately non-native cedars, obviously of two kinds, each extensively pruned. Their massive lower limbs emerged near the base of impressive trunks three feet and more in diameter, the limbs growing first outward before curving aloft. Neighboring trees’ branches intertwined to form a loose-knit twiggy umbrella. The cedars were foreign to me. Their bark and needles were similar to a pine’s—not the flattened sprays of scaly foliage and stringy red bark of our native incense cedar (which, along with the sequoia, is in the cypress family). The barrel-shaped cones vaguely resembled fir cones in that they stood vertically on the tree’s outermost twigs, crumbling in place rather than falling whole. Routed wooden placards on short posts identified individual trees as either “Cedar of Lebanon” or “Deodar,” species of so-called true cedars native to the Mideast and Asia, respectively. The two varieties differed largely in overall form and foliage color: the deodar, taller, with drooping branches and green-green needles; the cedar of Lebanon shorter, stouter, and more of a bluish green tint. I realized then that for years I’d been seeing both of these trees in parks and yards, not knowing what they were. But I couldn’t recall ever seeing any individuals nearly as impressive. Their maturity, dignity, and comforting shade gave the little park its peaceful aura—call it “the old tree effect.” I stayed for only a few minutes longer; this was just our first get-together, after all. Our introduction. In fact, I actually spoke to one of the deodars, whispering, “So nice to finally meet you!”

            A few days later, northbound again, I stopped for an extended visit and arrived with a plan: to climb one of the cedars. The open street out back where I’d just rolled to a stop during my previous visit turned out to be employee parking. This was a weekday during business hours and the unpaved area fronting the hedge was now lined with close-packed cars and SUVs—vehicles belonging to people who live right in town or nearby but others who commute from Lone Pine and Big Pine, maybe even Bishop. Bypassing the walkway, I squeezed through a narrow gap in the hedge and strolled around the lawn to scope out my objective: the southernmost deodar—the one I could get up into quickly and, hopefully, not be observed. This was the county sheriff’s HQ, after all, where tree climbing on state property is no doubt a form of trespass. The marvelous tranquility I’d felt on my previous visit was muted this time around. Scanning rows of curtainless windows, I saw small town civil servants at invisible desks—heads down, hard at work—and reflected on how these good citizens head home at quitting time untroubled by the stress and worry of city life (and even if they do commute many miles each day, don’t have to do battle with insane traffic; indeed, some get to walk to work.) Just then two men in suits came out for a smoke and sat down on one of the benches. I attempted to look inconspicuous and unfurtive while they chatted.

            As soon as the suits stood and turned to go I sprang into action. The tree’s first limb split off just above ground level—a monumental thing several feet thick, big as a “normal” tree’s trunk. I scrambled up onto it and, from there, hauled myself skyward on the rungs of a living ladder that transitioned from stout limb to skinny branch, making my way to the very top where at the last I had to wriggle through a thatch of needle-lined twigs. Fifty vertical feet gained me a view of the courthouse roof with its vents and conduits, of office interiors, traffic zooming by on the highway. Beyond there: tree-lined streets, quaint neighborhoods, and off in the distance a broad swath of the majestic Sierra crest providing scenic backdrop. From my airy perch the sound of traffic passing through town was once again prominent; semi trucks, an intermittent roar. 

After fifteen minutes I’d had enough sightseeing and clambered down. I looked before leaping off the lowest limb back onto the lawn, brushed off my hands, and took a casual victory stroll. Nobody was standing at their window staring at me, phone in hand. Good. The Sun was low in the west, its light slanting in with autumnal glow. Half the lawn was already in shade. The old trees looked a little different now, as I’d known they would—a consequence of altered perspective. I stood in mild reverence beneath a handsome, middle-aged cedar of Lebanon, taking the air with a warm glow inside. 

Suddenly, it began to rain…to rain feathers. Tiny feathers, backlit by the sun, were wafting down around me. What? After several moments of confusion, this flash of insight: a small bird was at that very moment being torn to shreds and devoured by another bird. The circle of life…you know: nature-red-in-tooth-and-claw. I looked up, made out the general vicinity of the rain of feathers’ origin, and stepped back. Back a little farther. There it was, yes: the silhouette of a sharp-shinned hawk standing atop a limb, forty feet off the deck. “Sharp-shins” are smaller cousins of the goshawk and Cooper’s hawk, all three species members of a subgroup of swift-flying, athletic raptors. They feed mostly on other birds, which they pluck before eating. (I have no idea what evolutionary advantage their sharp shins confer.) The drifting feathers were quite small—songbird-size. Sharp-shinned hawks, common in urban areas, are just who one would expect to find first plucking then eating mini-fowl in a tree in a town. VoilĂ .

            My inner scientist rose up again, inquiring, What species is being consumed? Most of the feathers making it through the needled boughs were drifting in a southwesterly direction into oblique sunlight. I tried to catch a couple for ID purposes, at first going after the big ones (wing and tail feathers) that were helicoptering down in the fashion of winged maple seeds but found them difficult to catch on the fly. I’d chase after one, get blinded by sunbursts, grab thin air. Then dash after another. I could’ve picked fresh-plucked feathers off the grass at will but, for reasons unknown, felt a compelling urge to catch one in flight. Off and on the little hawk came into my line of sight. Once, I stopped to watch—long enough to see its predatory head dip repeatedly, tearing off chunks of tender warm flesh before gobbling them down. I could see blood drip from its beak onto the fat branch where it stood while downy feathers floated earthward on the gentlest of breezes. Resuming my chase, I darted after feathers like a child chasing bubbles until it dawned on me that someone glancing out their window might finally notice that there was some madperson acting crazy out on the lawn. At that, self-consciousness took over and my private magical moment came to an abrupt close. But not before the latent scientist—someone I barely knew right then—made his final identification based on a breast feather’s faint brown streaking: Female and/or immature house finch. Both of us, me and the scientist, standing on the Inyo County Courthouse lawn under a December sun, under the watch of old trees whose sole arbor-aspiration was to abide. 

 

 

          ©2020 Tim Forsell                                                4 Dec 1994, 29 Jul 2020, 29 Jan 2022